1/5/22 ^^^The idea is to remain small

I will stay on course but I will not put too much emphasis on the outcome.

As it is, I follow the model to be...

Fuck, the model is not happening. 

I better stop.

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I plan to stop writing for a while now

Hei, I got good news; for this Aidil Fitri. I just buy one pair of clothes.  Guest what?  Lizzie will wash the same clothes for four days so that I can rotate the same clothes.

I think that is an awesome idea.

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Something weird happened this evening.  I was exercising.  Then there was an announcement that the King will [] (be) on air at 9:00 pm to declare that The Aidil Fitri is tomorrow.  It supposes to be on Wednesday.  Every year, they look out for the new moon rising. This year they saw the new moon rising; which is very rare. 

As the time was coming nearer to the announcement my bone conduction headphone blew up.  It was only one year old (8/4/21).

So I just go with the flow.  I take it that I should stop wearing headphones while exercising. 

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>>>#1/5/22 Feels like heaven

 Today is the day I keep my house in order.  So part of the arrangement is to slowly write again.

Definitely, I will run this afternoon.

I don't feel the need for extra money.  So I'll wait for September for my charity drive.

That is the nature of money.  I minimize spending as much as I can.  I switch to a cheaper alternative and do away with things like supplements.

So truly, I have nothing to spend.

I also decided to focus on physical health.  I focus on becoming health rich and forgo the alternative.

That way I stay with the idea to be on track with what I am doing instead of setting false expectations.

>>>#30/4/22 I want to take my own sweet time writing this entry

 Forget about institutionalizing God and Religion.

I just want to believe in God but I don't want to subscribe to any religion.

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29/4/22 ^^^To hell with it, I will keep on writing

 I decided that I will keep on writing even if what I write is junk

I am losing my regular Ramadan buddies this year.  I am losing my mom's affection this year too.  That's OK.  I have already lost my longest old friends

With that, I did my last begging.  The more reason why I should not spend money unnecessarily.

Today Friday 29/4/22  I start my life as a lone traveler.  Fuck everybody else.  A Warrior Walks Alone.

One thing for sure; NO MORE SMOKING.  That is the trophy.  As long as I smoke cigarettes and dope forever I am a loser.

I am definite[] (definitely) poorer in material gain.  However, I have all the intentions to be rich in physical health.

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Looking back at what I had done in the past 4 years, I only have one asset; I still have my health.  Without health  the rest is fleeting.

Even that is not the best of health.  However, it is sufficient for me to realize that health is wealth.

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Tonight I set the path of God without Religion.  I am forgoing my past.

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29/4/22 ^^^The unlikely involvement of the personal symbol

That is the nature of the article.

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My Darling Els,

I am writing as a way to practice my written skills all over again.

As you know, for 3 months I was experiencing writer's block.

Really, it was a terrifying encounter.

 As I write, I am trying my best to remain fluid.  It is not an easy feat.

Then I am stuck with blank thoughts

There is no smooth flow.

Like what I am writing now.  It's swatches of thoughts bundled together.

Hence, I need to practice.

Right after this, I lost my inspiration for more ideas. 

That is pretty much the length of the thought that I have per sitting.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm I send you an email. I need the practice...

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29/4/22 ^^^I guess I am a textrovert - bravery in texting

 

Here I am.  The thing I want the most is to run, run, run and run.

Now is the opportunity.  As it is, I should EXERCISE AT 6:00 PM DAILY.

The strategy is to focus on Diet and Exercise.

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>>>#29/4/2 Fighting short of breath all at once

 This is a serious effort.

At the same time, I am minimizing my intake of Sugar and Flour.

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I am very sure that my loss of writing skills is due to my high intake of Sugar and Starch.

I am still the man on  the Silver Mountain

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Let's [our] (put) it this way, NOTHING OUT OF THE ORDINARY WILL HAPPEN.

All I care about is running 21 km.  If I cannot do it, then I walk 6.79 km.

If every year after that I can do the same thing, then  I am a success.

By now I measure my success based on my success annually.

There is nothing beyond my Personal Pursuit.

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Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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1m

@elsDines

#traxxfm That is funny, don't wake me up. 

Here I am just waking up...  

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm I like it when you fly solo. The choice of songs is better.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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13s

@elsDines

#traxxfm This song is like it was meant for me.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm I told Sarah, that everything is up to her. I may end up with nothing. If that happens, my life pursuit will be the 21 km Hill Run annually. There goes my ambition to marry you... I really love you hon.

PARADISE, MEDUZA

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm I am prepared for the worst. The challenge is daunting. Meantime, I persist. Do you know that I now sleeping while sitting? I cannot breathe properly if I lie sleeping. It's really bad hon.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm I was hit pretty badly. At one time I lost my memory to write properly.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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28s

@elsDines

#traxxfm You know I am not fooling around when comes to loving you.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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21s

@elsDines

#traxxfm I still have to fight my inner demons. I look at it as the burden to set things right.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm Right now I am focusing on recovery.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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1m

@elsDines

#traxxfm Els honey, the love of my life... Do you think they will honor the business deal?

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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1m

@elsDines

#traxxfm Aaah... The Joker and the Queen, love it.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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20s

@elsDines

#traxxfm Darling, if you are confident, let's commit now... until the next 3 years.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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19s

@elsDines

#traxxfm let's commit...

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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48s

@elsDines

#traxxfm I am glad I got to know you, Smelly Baby. When I first know you, I had a different impression. Now I really know you, I'm glad I suspend my judgment.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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1m

@elsDines

#traxxfm Remember I said you are Jinak Merpati? Jinak Merpati makan ditangan Pigeon Tame eats from the hand Dipanggil mari ditangkap lari Call *i[s] will come catch it will flee I still think you are Jinak Merpati, dikurung di Sangkar Hati

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm We have plenty of good memories didn't we? My proudest moment is being able to tell the size of your sneakers. That requires a magic spell. If I teach you, I have to kill you.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm What I don't understand really is why no call out or shout out anymore... Heeeeeeey... This song! Our first few songs. When I am with you... Sure brings fond memories.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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1m

@elsDines

#traxxfm

@ladygaga

Look at what Lady Gaga did: Oh... Never mind, the Chromatica two swords and a red heart got censored.

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